Virus

Yes, I have a virus.  I'm so stinkin', hoppin' mad I could cry. (Not like I eventually won't, but...) No using my computer, no e-mails useless I use someone else's computer, and no blogging either.

Okay, I feel a little better.  Later everyone.  And I'll do things as I can.

~ Iggy out

Virus?

Hey y'all, it looks like there is a virus on my comp so I will respond to e-mails and comments when I can, which may not be before Friday afternoon or Saturday.  Please pray for me as I travel this weekend.  There are usually a LOT of crazy ppl out on the road.  Leave me a comment if you wish. L8rz.

things are okay now, i think.  i'm not on the verge of complete hate of myself, so i guess we're okay to go.  being spoken to by ... and i figured he'd not want to talk to me again.  ever.

but emotional i'm work out.  so, i'll chat with y'all later.

I really hate myself right now.  I found a great guy, became friends with him, finally decided I liked him, and now I've messed everything up.  I thought he liked he, as did everyone else around me, so I acted upon that.  That was my mistake.  Next time someone says, 'You realize he really, really likes you, right?' I will turn on my heel and run for dear life.

I know this derogatory, but I just want to forget about men in general and specific.  It would make my life sooo much easier.  I mean, I really like this guy, but if I'm going to mess everything up and ruin relationships, whatever level they may be on, forget it all.  And forget me.  Why do I do that?  I don't know, so I'm just going to give up on men and me.  Like I said, it'll make life easier.

I hope no one thinks I'm upset with him.  I'm not.  I don't want to be.  I'm just angry at me for my stupidity.  So, I guess I'll try to act as if I had never liked him in the first place.  But completely ignoring him is going to be a little hard considering his family sits in the row behind myself at church.  And he either sits with them or at the very end of the row I'm on.

Oh, and if anyone is thinking that my world has fallen apart, forget that idea right now.  See, he and I both have responsibilities, priorities, etc.  Neither of us is ready for something of that magnitude.  I like him, but I didn't want the 'relationship' to go any further than casual friendship.  And I ruined it.  Just call me Kay the Ruiness.  Then yell and scream and holler at me.  I might feel better.

Are you reading this and going, 'Look at all the 'I's she's using'?  Yeah, even if you aren't, I am.  The it's-all-about-me attitude.  Time for romantic movies (White Christmas, Ever After, You've Got Mail, etc), and where is my bag of chocolate chips to cry over the movies with?  I guess ought to go read from my Bible.  It certainly won't make me feel better though.  None of it will, yet.  But I'm going to read it anyway.  Because it's the right thing to do.  Pray for me friends.  I need it right now.  Pray for him too, he's got things to deal with too because of me.

It looks terrible.  I know.  But I'm just starting to work on it again!  Please be patient!

Kate!  Where have you gone?????

For my wedding....  I want to take dance lessons with my father and the husband-to-be, but I think I'll let him (husband-to-be) take lessons with his mother or sister.  That would be fun!

There is a thing in some weddings called 'dancing'.  I want it at my wedding.  See, something, at least to me, is symbolized by the bride dancing, first with her father, then her husband.  And I want that in my wedding.  Or, if Dad is not able to or is unable to be there, I want to dance with my brothers.

Something sad, and yet exciting, is shown through that 'performance', if you will.  The father is 'dancing the last dance' with his daughter who is now a grown woman, or at least we would hope so.  The groom dancing with his bride is showing the beginning of a new era in both of their lives - a time to grow and love one another.

I really and truly cannot wait for that time in my life, and yet... it scares the livin' daylights out of me.  Have you ever heard the song 'Mister Sandman, Bring Me a Dream'?  I realize it's an oldies song, but I've actually stopped to listen to the words. (Maybe, if I can find them, I'll post them on here.) '... and tell him that his lonely nights are over....'  That doesn't just apply to men; it applies to women (specifically me).  As the 'weaker vessel', I want to know that someone is there for me.  Someone will be there to protect and care for me.  Someone upon whom I can shower affection, love, encouragement, whatever he needs. (In other words, I want someone who will go slay dragons, conquer evil, and come home at the end of the day to receive my praise and encouragement.)  That is some of the positive side, now for the... not negative, but not totally encouraging either side.  I have a huge 'choice' of men where I am - good Christian men.  But, what if I were to go totally on my own in 'choosing' my husband?  What then?  A marraige is a pact of 'forever'.  If I marry Mr Wrong, the moment I say 'I do', he is Mr Right.  See, I don't know who 'he' is.  Goodness!  He might be the young man who sits on the other side of the church, or near me!  I don't know.  All I know is that I have to follow God's direction.  It really all depends on my relationship with God.  I follow His leading = meeting and marrying Mr Right.  I follow my heart rather than what is right = maybe meeting Mr Right, but possibly looking right over him and marrying Mr Wrong.  Get my point?  Now you see why it scares me so bad.

Now, it may seem that I am bragging here, but I have, obviously, men in my family, great guy friends, and one especially great guy friend.  From what they tell me, what I have seen and heard, and have dealt with on my own, I have a good understanding of men.  I understand a lot of what men and women want.  Men want: the soft side of a woman (ie. love, tender care that only a woman can give, encouragement, someone who will lift him up, and help meet his needs, whatever they may be).  Women want (whether they realize it or not): someone to protect and care for them as only a man can, to be able to (maybe not physically, but at least mentally and verbally) hold their man's head to their hearts when things have gone bad at the office or his mom os being frustrating, or he's sick and feels like death warmed over, someone to encourage (something that will give any woman the most beautiful feeling in the world), someone to taste their cooking, and rather than (if it's really not that good) saying, 'That's nasty!'  saying, 'Dear, maybe if you'd add a pinch more of confectioner's sugar, it would taste even better.  Here let me help!'  We also want to raise a family, maybe a dog or two, or some other critter that our six-year-old boy brings home from the creek.

Okay, so I've been sappy, but at the same time, this is the way I think.  I can only pray that I will be directed to a man who thinks like me.  Amen! (So be it!)

I'll see if I can't put something on here besides URLs of things from friends sites. What say you to that, my good friends (blogging or otherwise)? Maybe.... I don't know. I don't have time for much really. I don't even have time for the e-mails I send out! I scrunch everything to just check my e-mail! Fhew! Anyway, I'm getting ready to change the look of things around here to Christmas colors, but after Chrostmas, I may play around with some stuff. Gotta run!

~ Iggy

Btw, go visit Kate. She's got a good story going. Maybe I'll post some of my stories. I'm working on a Christmas one right now. And one about.... Well, you'll just have to see. :)

And I'm still kicking, but so much has been going on.

I went looking for avatars (profiles pics) earlier.  I like Lord of the Rings and Chronicles of Narnia and Beauty and the Beast (my all-time favorite Disney flick).  So, I have been looking for those pics and found some neat things.

Here's a few of the pages I've found on the Internet:
http://theblessedtree.com/brotherhood/gallery.html
http://www.thelionscall.com/humor/addicted_to_narnia.cfm?menu_parent_id=4&menu_item_id=103
http://obsessed.potterworldonline.com/sweet/index.php?extra
http://mourning-love.net/aravis/affiliates.php
http://lucid.lunacy.nu/quiz/pirates.html
(This was my result) - http://lucid.lunacy.nu/quiz/elizabethswann.gif
http://www.uib.no/People/hnohf/

L8rz.

http://maria_christinag.bravejournal.com/
http://mischiefsmuse.bravemusings.com/
http://www.twowitchesstuckinbiblebelt.bravejournal.com/
http://fallenmoonlight.bravejournal.com/
http://ivanhoe1.bravejournal.com/
http://poetrylady39.bravejournal.com/
http://crimson_shine.bravejournal.com/
http://venom75.bravejournal.com/index.php

I have also been visitn a few sites.  Lie these,  http://www.paleothea.com/quizmen.html and http://www.paleothea.com/quiz.html and the main page,  http://www.paleothea.com/

Now, I have not yet gottne to read everything on these blogs, so I will NOT put forth my personal endorsment of them until I have.  I would like to read their posts when I get another chacne, but taht will probably not be for another long while.  Everybody take care.

Oh, here are my results after taking the quizes.  For goddesses, I got Hera.  Not my fave goddess, but she is an understandable person.



And, just for kicks, I took the test for the Greek god I am like.  I got two  actually, one was Zues and the other was Apollo.  I decided to only show the one for Apollo right now as the other was slightly embarrassing and not something I can fix.

Then I took the test again a moment again after having to close down that particular window.  I only got Apollo this time.  Check it out.



L8r friends.  I'll come back around when I get the chance.

I've been really busy.  Life just seems to continually get in my way of doing the things I really and truly want to do.  But, I have gotten to work on a few things, like a web page I've been trying to design from scratch.  I'm trying to figure out how to use CSS when developing a web page.  While I'm doing that, I using a template that I got from somewhere - can't remember where now, been too long.  Anywho, I guess I'll be back when I get the chance.  L8r.